My, my, my, what a week I have had.

I've spent most of it with the flu. Today was actually the first day it didn't take me an hour to get out of bed. Unfortunately the flu came at a bad time because I had a lot of crap to do this week and I couldn't just lounge around in bed. The week has been dreadful and I look like hell.

But luckily, the flu did get Chris off my ass for a while. He has called to check on me, which was nice, but I was glad to not have to make up an excuse for not wanting to have sex.

I still feel shitty, but I think I will make it. And besides my Mavericks won and that cheered me up.

My friend Steve, who I took some pictures of my makeup work a couple of weeks ago, finished all of the pictures. He said they look awesome and is using some in a project he has for art. He said he'd bring my copies by, but honestly I'm so weak I can't get to the front door, so I'll wait until next week when hopefully I feel better. The fact that he says they look good, must mean that they are good. If they looked like crap, he would have said so.

Okay I'm getting tired again. Think I'ma lay down.

I hate being sick!!!!!!!!!
~Jen

I know its been a while since the last post, so let me inform you about what has been going on.

So Chris and I went to Arkansas to go rocking climbing during the weekend. The whole camping thing was a joke. An actual joke, we stayed in a hotel (a very nice one) all weekend. I was extremely relieved by this. It rained Friday, so we didn't get to do any climbing. On Friday we finally had sex. MY STREAK HAS FINALLY COME TO AN END!!!! One would think that I would be relived by this, but quite honestly I am not. The sex was awful. Really bad. Really really bad. I expected the first time to be not so good and awkward, but it was bad everytime. Four bad times. I was better off not having sex, and I never thought I would say that. The guy only has one gear and it is stuck on fast. Usually I'm not very vocal about what I want so soon. I believe that sometimes you just gotta get comfortable with being with some one before giving instructions, but this time I bit the bullet and instructed this guy and I was still left dissatisfied. With the bad sex, I almost feel like my streak continues.

Maybe we can work things out in the sex department, but that takes work and since he's not my boyfriend or someone that I am interested in having a serious relationship with, I don't know if I want to put in that kind of work. I must admit that the sex, has kind of turned me off to Chris. My friends and I call him Jack (as in jack rabbit). And now he wants to have sex all the time and I've already started making excuses ... I've got homework, since when has homework been that important.

There are a couple of positives here though:

1.) Whatever he lacks in the sex department, he makes up for with kissing. Chris is an A+ kisser.

2.) It was good to feel close to somebody. It was some good skin on skin contact.

3.) Rock climbing was awesome. We went Saturday and it was amazing. It was challenging but I can't wait to go back again.

4.) His family is a riot. They are so hilarious. He went out to dinner with his family on Saturday. They invited me over for a BBQ on Sunday. Ya'll know how I love my BBQ and beer. It great his family cracks me up, they are so funny.

So in a nutshell, this was my weekend. Overall it was a good time. Anytime I can get away from school is a good time. I've got a lot of shit to do this week so I don't know when I'll be able to post again.

How bout my Mavericks taking game one Sunday. It wasn't pretty but a win is a win.

How do you spell MVP? DIRK NOWITZKI
How do you spell Coach of the Year? AVERY JOHNSON

Peace
~Jen

So I'm packing all my stuff to go on the trip with Chris this weekend. We have been getting along very well. He stayed the night last night and we did not have sex. Might as well save all of that for the weekend I guess.

He mentioned that tomorrow we would be camping. Camping????? I hate camping. I told him that I hated camping and he seemed a little upset. He had already made plans at the campground and the place where he's taking me rock climbing is in the park which contains the camp site. I didn't bitch about it much; I decided I'd suck it up and go along with it. Hopefully, it won't be bad. Hopefully ....

We are staying at a hotel on Saturday and Sunday. He is going out to dinner with his family on Saturday. He asked me to go, but I feel weird about it. I am just getting to know him and meeting the fam seems like a bit much. He told them that "he and his friend Jen were going rock climbing this weekend". So I guess it would be rude if I didn't go. Maybe I'll talk to him about it on the way. I don't anything to be too formal, too stuffy, or something were I have to get super dressed up to impress this guy's family. Chris and I are just friends so I shouldn't feel obligated to meet his family.

Okay I feel better

But on the real, I'm kinda nervous about the camping thing. I'm a city girl, and camping always turns out bad for a city gal. What if it rains and my hair gets wet and frizzy? I bet there aren't any showers. I've only been camping one time in my life and lets just say it turned out very bad. But that was then, maybe this experience will be different. It can't be that bad. I 'm really excited about rock climbing. I'm athletic and so I like to try new sports. I'm looking forward to it.

And of course I'm looking forward to some much needed action. Went to Vicky's (victoria secret) and got me some cute under garmets. The Sexy Bitch is about to make her full return.

Peace and grease,
~Jen

Chris and I got our test results back today and thank goodness both of us came back negative in every category. Yeah!!!!!!!!!!So I guess its on this weekend .....

I have another question from the Book of Questions today.

Question 183: A cave-in occurs while you and a stranger are in a concrete room deep in a mine shaft. Before the phone goes dead, you learn the entire mine is sealed and the air hole being drilled will not reach you for 30 hours. If you both take sleeping pills from the medicine chest, the oxygen will last for only 20 hours. Both of you can't survive;alone, one of you might. After you both realize this, the stranger takes several sleeping pills, says that it is in God's hands, and falls asleep. You have a pistol,what do you do?

Answer: The gun is not an option, unless I can use it in some way to make another hole for some oxygen without a stray bullet hitting myself and the stranger and this is provided that it would not cause further damage to the cave-in. Otherwise, I would patiently wait out the 19 hours and if no one has gotten to us by then, I would take a dose of sleeping pills. You can still take the pills with the possibility of being rescued in enough time, or you can take the pills and die in your sleep. I think that is the best way to go. Why kill your self, when you could still possibly live; besides I'm not bold enough to shoot myself. And after all, it really is in God's hands if you live or die. Whatever's meant to happen, will happen.

peace

~Jen

I decided that instead of boring you guys with the daily goings of my life, I'd bore you with my answer to a random question from The Book of Questions.

Question #42:(part one) How would you react if you were to learn that your mate had had a lover of the same sex before you knew each other?

Let me start by saying I'm not homophobic or anything. I have gay friends and family; really its not that big a deal. Do what you like as long as it makes you happy. Own your sexuality, whatever it is. Now with that said, if I found out that a guy I was with had previously been in a sexual relationship with a man, I admit I would be extremely uneasy. In fact, I know that I would no longer have sex with him. I would be turned off by him and it would always be in the back off my mind that he had been with a man, not to mention the visual. I could not handle that. I believe everyone has a sexuality; this notion of bi-sexuality is mind boggling and greedy. No double dips, you gotta pick one. Being that this is my logic, the guy who has been with me and another man, is clearly confused and in protecting myself I would hate to be attached to someone and then only have them tell me they are leaving me for someone else.

(part two)Have you ever been attracted to someone of the same sex? to someone in your family? If so, how did you deal with it?

I wouldn't say that I've been attracted to another woman. I've seen some that I thought were beautiful, smart, and intelligent but it ended there. I've never thought about being with a woman or even kissing another woman. I don't think there is anything wrong with it, but for me personally I just like dick. I always have, for as long as I can remember (which is about since age 3). What can I say, I just like men!!!! As far as someone in my family, two words, HELL NO!!!!!! Well okay, except for this guy who was supposedly my very very very distant cousin (IT ACTUALLY TURNS OUT THAT HE IS OF NO RELATION TO ME... ITS BEEN DNA TESTDED I PROMISE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!). He was a male model and had been in an ad for underwear. He signed a picture for someone in my family and I saw the picture. I was 8 and I'd never seen a guy in his underwear (very tight underwear at that), he had a nice body and I thought he was cute. I just thought he was cute, no crush or nothing. As a matter of fact, I have never seen him in person only in that picture, and that was only one time. But as it turned out, he wasn't even my family. I don't even know his name.

I'd like to hear your answers. What do you think?

~Jen